Monday, November 4, 2013

Lost.........

i have this empty feeling inside of me.
when i breathe i feel my soul escaping
like its wanting to leave to find better pastures
 
i have this empty feeling inside heart
when i try to speak i hear no words
like the wind has silenced me
 
for you came into my life like a whirlwind
and took my breath away
the smell of your colonge
took my mind
to an orgasmic high
 
yet, you are not here with me
i call out for you
only to get an echo
hearing my own silent cries
 
i am walking in the dark
looking for your light
to guide me to you
 
i say a silent prayer
to lead me to your heart
for i count the minutes until we meet again
and nothing will tear us apart

Life is but a dream

All she ever wanted in life was to be loved
She yearned for the security of something
She could call her own
She has felt heartbreak all her life
She thought if the first man in her life could leave her
No other man would treat her any better
She would look for love
Only to be hurt again
Her heart shattered more and more
Now standing on the bridge
This lonely girl ponders her life
What would happen if she left here
Theres nothing here for me
She thought to herself
I will never be loved by anyone else
She stepped closer
To the edge with tears in her eyes
Looking down at the tide
This is it she said
This is goodbye
The edge seemed smaller as she leaned over
Her fear of heights shook her for a minute
But she was determined to do what she thought was best
She closed her eyes and said
Goodbye lonely world! Im better off dead!
As she fell to her watery grave,
Her alarm clock went off
It was her only save
For this occurrence was but a dream
But to the young lady in her head
This dream felt too real
For life is but a dream to her that she can end at any day
And those things will just stay dreams today

Stormy weather

Warning: This is for mature peeps only. No emailing me asking me about re enacting anything with you.

I thought about showing another side of my writing....Please enjoy..I'll write more later

Her eyes were fixed on the people who were walking next to the car. The scenes of the night filled her brain with wonder as the limo rolled down Royal Street. It had just finished raining and the night air was stiff with a small breeze flowing through it.   After a few turns, the limo suddenly stops in front of a small hotel. It looks like an old mansion from the days when Louisiana was a part of Spain.  The driver gets out to open the door for her and walk her to the front desk.  "Are you sure this is where I'm supposed to go?" she asked.  "Yes, ma'am," he replied. "225 Royal Street. This is the address." She slowly walks to the front desk where a young lady in a navy blue sportscoat gives her a key and tells her which way to the room.
 
She slowly goes up a spiral stairway, picking up her dark blue and black hostees dress from dragging on the floor.  Her matching six-inch heels slowly stepped on the creaking steps as she gazed up at the candlelight lamps that are in the hallway.
 
"Room 215," she thought. "This is the room."  She knocked softly on the door as a man tells her to come in.  The room is dark except for the candles that are lit around the room. The window is open allowing that stiff air to flow in as the curtains danced with every blow.  The gentleman is sitting in a chair in the opposite corner in the dark.  His face cannot be seen but his tall, shadowy stature leans towards her and scopes out her figure. His eyes slowly go up from the heels up to her pinned up hair that is adorned with dark ivory chopsticks.
 
"Come here," he said with a deep Southern voice. "I want to see your face."  She slowly walks up to him and allows him to touch her milk chocloate complexion and sits on the end of the large bed. She takes her chopsticks from her hair and it gently falls down to her shoulders. She slowly gets up and walks towards him.  She gently bends over and kissed his lips.  She starts slowly to sit on his lap and began to kiss his neck and ear softly.  Her moans vibrate in his ear as she softly giggles.  "I want to fuck you like you have never been fucked before," she said.  "I want to hear you moan and groan with every move I make."  She slowly slides down to her knees and caresses his calfs as her hands go up slowly to the zipper.
 
Her soft fingertips slowly pull the zipper down as the gentleman leans back to relax.  She slowly pulls out his seven-inch, hard and throbbing member. She gives a small smile and looks up at him.  "I am about to give you the best dick sucking of your life," she said with a high assurance that she will. "I am going to make you cum long and hard." Then she began to suck on him slowly. Licking up and down his shaft and teasing his head by flickering her tongue.  His maons start softly then get louder as she takes his whole member into her mouth. Tightly wrapping her lips around it and moving her head up and down in a continous motion.  He grabs her head and begins to push her down deeper onto it.  She begans to go faster as he groans and moans along with her.  "Suck it baby," he told her.  "Suck on this dick."  Her head moves faster as he begins to feel his climax reaching its full peak.  When he hits climax, she slowly gets up and begins to strip for him. She takes off her shoes, then slowly takes off her dress that she throws across the room.  She is only left her a matching black lace set.
 
She lays down on her back across the giant bed and begins to please herself in front of him.  She slides her two fingers in and out of herself as he looks on from the chair.  She eyes are closed as she gets deeper into it.  He gets up and removes her hands.  He pushes her down to the bed and begins to take of her panties.  He climbs on top of her and slides inside of her.  His begins to rock back and forth while she arches her back in pleasure. 
 
Then, all of a sudden, she pushes him off of her and tackles him down to the bed.  "No," she said. "We're doing this my way."  She jumps on tope and begins to rock back and forth with him inside of her. He begins to moan as she begins to bounce up and down. "You like that don't you," she asked. "You like that don't you?"  She began to bounce out of control as he begged her not to stop. "Is that all you got," he asked. " Come on, give me your best shot."  With that challenge, she began to ride him deeper and harder, grabbing the back of his hair.
She wrapped her legs around his waist and arched her back all the way to get him completely inside of her. His legs began to shake as she kept moving hitting his spots.  "Oh no," she taunted. "You can't cum yet.  You want the best and I'm going to give it to you."  She turned her body with her back facing him and leaned down to his feet and began to bounce again.
 
He could not take any more and felt his body shaking as he climaxed while still inside of her.
She follwed right after and collapsed onto the bed.
 
As the curtains danced with the wind, she got dressed and walked back to the car.  She told the driver to bring her home and laid on the backseat.  As she looked out of the window, she saw him staring at her. She closed the window as the limo drove down Royal Street.
I know it is early but I had to write this..........

Someday at Christmas, there will be no hurt
They will no falling down hard in the dirt

Someday at Christmas, there will be no blood thirsty president
And no songs asking where all the good boys went

Someday at Christmas, there will be no levees to break
People won’t have loot for food or clothes for survival sake

Someday at Christmas, I pray
That the factors of race would fade away

That we can live together in peace and worry free
I won’t have to worry about others judging me

Looks and class will not be a factor anymore
Society won’t be able to determine rich from poor

Someday at Christmas, we will see
That love and respect will set us free

Another night

when i first met you
we hit it off so fast
always together, talking about the past
now looking back, i didn't know then
that you would become
more than just my friend
 
now that you know
i never wanna let you go
eventhough you are far away
there is one place
you will always stay....
 
cause,
no matter where you go
no matter what you do (no matter baby)
one thing's for sure
that i'll always love you
 
no matter where you'll be
i will never leave (no baby)
cant you see
that we were meant to be
 
my first thought in the morning
my last in the evening
you are the reason baby
that i'm always dreamin
 
your voice lights my soul
your love makes me whole
now i know i'll never, never
let you go
 
cant let you go that easy
you gotta tell me how you feel
please let me know
if this love is real
 
for good and for bad
through the light and the dark
you have been the strength
in my heart
 
so baby please
tell if this love
is right
because i dont
want to leave without
you another night........

A poem for those who miss someone

This is for everyone who has someone they miss or will miss deeply. If its from relocation, war or anything else, this is for you....


As I walk down the road, I think of you
As I stare out the window, I wish for you to be next to me

As I sleep, I dream of you
As I feel the breeze of the wind, I hear your voice calling for me

As I cry, I feel you wiping away the tears
As I pray, I hope that God is protecting you until we meet again

For we are physically apart, but in my heart, my soul and in my spirit
I know you are there with me

I know you have to get on the grind, but there is a selfish part of me
That wants you to stay with me

You worked so hard to get here you are
You fought off the worse and rolled with the best

Some accepted you in there circles while others tried to shut you out
Still you rose to the occasion

Now it’s your day and all I can do is be there for you
I see you there proud of the result of your hustle
But I know that this is the end of one chapter and the beginning

I know that the days, the weeks and the months will pass
And the time, the space and the distance will come into play

One thing I know that will stay true is we will always have our good times
Cause where there's me, there's you; where there's you, there's me

Tuesday, November 27, 2012

Graduation......one year later

It has been one year since I graduated and thingd have changed.

First off, I took a low paying job in news to get the experience, however, I got nowhere.

Do not get me wrong, I enjoyed meeting new people and learning the ropes but there was no advancement anywhere. So, I started to search for new entry level jobs but they all needed a DVD.

So, I want looking for someone to do it. The price range went from $500-2,000! How in the hell could I afford that with a low paying job? I started to get depressed; feeling hopeless and worthless.

Then one day, a camera guy I worked with from Lafayette told me about jobs out there. He told me that took rookies and to make my own DVD.

So, Jay and I took his camera and a mircophone and started to get to work. I took my anchor read, did some voice overs and live shots and made it work.

In the end, all I ask for is some prayers and good thoughts for a chance at a job of my dreams.